That's how much I've lost as of this week.
It seems like a teensy bit of weight for doing this for such a long time. But what else would I be doing? I suppose this is my life now, for better or for worse. Some changes this stubborn curmudgeon didn't anticipate:
For the first time in my life, for Lent I didn't give up anything-- I added something. I promised myself that I would say "yes" to as many events as I could, call up and reconnect with old friends, and send notes and cards to folks I had let fade out of my life. After the hullabaloo of running multiple organizations at once last year, I retreated from most large- scale social/political stuff. Recently I realized that this retreat had chipped at a few friendships and made me seem aloof, and that isn't who I wanted to be. So today I dropped a ton of Mother's Day cards in the box for loved ones. It felt so good, selecting the perfect card for each one and writing a note. Last year I didn't have time
take time to do this. I have made it a habit out of connection, and will continue though the 40 days are done.
I now believe deeply in the power of movement. On my run yesterday (and by run I always mean walk + jog) two runners literally left me in the dust. I mean, they ran past me from a block away, and in a matter of minutes were a block ahead. And they were pushing a kidlet in a running stroller! An old me would have been too ashamed to keep going, but now I am beginning to believe in my own power and in the challenge of locating myself. I no longer feel as if I have to be first. But I do have to feel.
I have resolved to eat green even when it is inconvenient, because I believe deeply in committing to making our world better.
I finish up the 4th week of Couch to 5k tomorrow morning in some new running shoes. I have always hated running, been too ashamed of my body to be so public about wanting to change it.
Good goodness...I own running shoes.
I have failed. I have learned.
I have been more assertive in expressing my needs and shaking off the anxiety of "what if...?"
I have reclaimed the power of my own beauty.
I am proactive about my health, even though I am afraid.
I began this blog to talk about life, fashion and my new home. It has morphed into a blog about weight loss, pleasure, health and metamorphosis. I am changed, changing.
I have far to go. I am so excited about the journey!
Thanks for chugging along for the ride.
Weight loss, week 14: -1.2
Total loss: -13